Appearances aren’t everything but then again…

When my mom was going through chemotherapy and radiation, she lost her hair at different points in time. She also lost her toenails and her fingerprints due to the treatments. Wigs of all styles became her thing! Her new normal. 

In solidarity, I shaved my head so she wouldn’t feel alone. Once, she told me she would go ahead and shave her hair, because it would have been too  upsetting to wake up and see hair on her pillow. This was also her doctors’ advice. 

Despite the fact that I may have hurriedly cut my hair off and when, I wanted this for a particular reason. 

A sister said “you didn’t do that, Sakinah!!” “She’s sick… but she wouldn’t want to see you without any hair!” 🙈

However the next time I saw my mom, she said “that’s my haircut! You look like me!” ❤️ Mission accomplished alhamdulillah. 

Over the years, I decided to keep my hair short because of mental health issues like anxiety and ADHD. I’ve grown it out occasionally, but ultimately decided on going back to how I looked when my mom was alive. 

I hope she’d be happy with my choices. I hope she’d like what I’ve done with myself and why.